Quick update on my last few appointments. I had the pleasure of getting my port removed on July 23rd.  I have been looking forward to that day for a long time.  Everything went very well, until a few days ago, when I noticed infection settling in.  I did return to the surgeon's office yesterday and was put on antibiotic.  I hope it all clears up quickly.  I will return on August 6th to get my stitches removed.  I met with my oncologist on July 23rd as well.  We talked a bit about the preventative measures we will take now that I am cancer free.  I am to get either a mammogram or MRI scan every year.  I will also have to be on the drug Tamoxifen for the next 5 years.  This is an anti-hormone therapy that can help prevent the return of breast cancer.  My cancer was estrogen positive, meaning that it was hormone driven.  The Tamoxifen will help block the estrogen getting to my remaining breast.  I am not to get pregnant while on this drug.  Like most drugs, it is associated with certain side effects, such as hot flashes (which I have had all through chemo and despise them!) and in some cases, uterine cancer! I was a bit confused as to why I am being put on a drug to prevent my cancer from coming back, only to have a chance of it giving me a different one........ But the oncologist assured me that studies have shown that the number of women in which Tamoxifen prevented the breast cancer from coming back largely outweigh the amount of women who got uterine cancer.  It is a small percentage and he knows this drug will be beneficial to me. I am grateful to have had such amazing specialists to guide me through this journey.  They are so knowledgeable and have taken great care of me.  Again and again, thank you for your support and many prayers.  We have felt their power and strength and continue to feel it, as we look forward to moving on and remaining cancer free.

We made it!!! :-)

WE HAVE FINALLY REACHED THE LONG-AWAITED END OF TREATMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!  I cannot even begin to describe just how happy and free I feel.  Monday, July 16th was my last chemotherapy treatment.  I could not wipe the smile off my face as I walked in the cancer center and into the infusion room, knowing it was the last time I entered that room.  I was finally reaching the finish line of what seemed like the longest journey ahead of me when I started. As I sat down tonight to update the blog, I began by reading all my previous entries.  Looking back on the journey now, time seems to have gone by quite fast.  But reading back, it seems like it started so long ago.  I cannot believe Jaden was 7 weeks old when I got diagnosed.  He is now a whopping 20 lbs, happy-as-can-be,7 month old, crawling all over the place. How time flies. I know I have not been very dilligent in keeping this blog updated this last round of chemotherapy.  At the beginning of these last 12 weeks of weekly chemo, I must admit I was a bit frightened and intimidated by the number of treatments I had left.  It seemed like an eternity to get through.  But how your thoughts and prayers have helped!  I was given the strength necessary to get through it.  As I mentioned in my earlier post, the symptoms with the taxol were different than the symptoms with my first 4 treatments.  I had a bit more energy with the taxol, although without fail, Thursdays of every week were the hardest days for me.  I was a lot more tired and fatigued on Thursdays.  That always seemed strange to me that it was the same day every week.  While I was able to hold on to my eyebrows and eyelashes with my first round of chemotherapy, taxol succeded in thinning my eyebrows significantly and taking most of my eyelashes.  Again, strangest thing to me, as my eyebrows and eyelashes were thinning, the hair on my head started to slowly peek through.  I have a regrowth all over my head now.  I was told that my hair will grow an average of one millimeter a day.  We have a long road back to my shoulder-length hair, but I am ecstatic to begin this journey!  The toughest symptom of this last round of chemo has to be nail dystrophy.  I was told before I began chemo that there was a good possibility my nails could fall off.  I was hoping to escape this particular side effect, but I did not. The flesh under my fingernails started to deteriorate, causing pain, odor and my nails to peel off.  I had to cut them down bit by bit, to let my fingertips air out and heal.  This was both a very painful and unpleasant task.  Any pressure or anything touching my fingertips was extremely painful at first.  Having my hands underwater has also been greatly uncomfortable.  My fingertips have now started to heal and I am without the most part of every fingernail now.  It is still a bit painful, but mostly, very unattractive and extremely impractical.  How I miss the use of my fingernails!!!  I am having to rely on others for the simplest tasks now.  I hear it can take a very long time for the fingernails to grow back.  I am hoping they will grow back as quickly as possible.  My toenails have thankfully survived the chemo untouched.  I am curious to see how quickly my body can recover from all the toxins that infiltrated it the past 5 months. I am so glad it is all behind me.  Another long-awaited appointment is coming this Monday.  I will finally have the pleasure of getting my port removed.  I had a port surgically put at the base of my collar bone (on my right side) for chemotherapy administration purposes.  It will be removed in the surgeon's office on Monday July 23rd with local anesthesia.  I will be glad to see it go!  I have grown accustomed to it over the last months, but it can still be quite bothersome at times.  I will also meet with my oncologist this coming Monday for a follow-up visit.  I anticipate more information on what is now in store for me.  I will post this information once I receive it.  So many feelings of gratitude rush through me as I look back at the last 6 months.  I am so thankful for the outpouring of love and support.  Reading back through my blog brought with it an array of different emotions.  Brougt back less pleasant memories I had somewhat put aside, along with fond memories of loving gestures and expressions of love from so many different people.  We are so blessed to have the support group we have.  THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts. I truly cannot adequately express the gratitude we feel.  Thank you for making us stronger through this journey.  I know it will never truly be over.  That is the reality for our family.  I know there is always a possibilty of it coming back.  But most importantly, I know this is all in God's hands and that He works miracles.  I know I have a strong foundation to hold me up and carry me through, in all of you, through your love, thoughts and prayers.  We love you dearly, we thank you deeply.  Further updates will come as I meet with my oncologist. :-)

3 down, 9 to go!  It feels so good to be able to say I have less than 10 treatments left.  Getting Taxol through chemo every Monday hasn’t been as bad as I was anticipating. The symptoms this chemo brings are a bit milder than the last chemo I was getting.  On the plus side, my appetite has returned and I am not as exhausted as the first chemo.  I experienced a metallic taste in my mouth for a bit, but it has left and not come back for quite some time now.  So I hope it stays well away. I am loving being able to enjoy food again.  On the down side, I seem to be experiencing a bit of what they call “chemo brain” with this chemo.  I seem to be a bit more forgetful and have been a bit confused regarding dates of events, etc.  Poor Halle has been the one to really feel the consequences of this forgetfulness and confusion, as she has had specific things to bring to school on specific dates.  Let’s just say some things didn’t make it to school, while the ones that did made it there on the wrong days... Thank goodness for me, she is very forgiving and understanding. This chemo is also different from the last, as I seem to feel its tiring effects toward the end of the week as opposed to the beginning.  Oddly enough, I feel pretty good right after chemo as well as the few days following.  It is usually around Thursday that I start feeling pretty tired.  But again, not as exhausted as I experienced with the first 2 drugs, so I am very happy about that. I do not have to get the Neulasta shot (shot to boost my white blood cell count) with this particular chemo, which I am ecstatic about.  One less prick and poke J. I will be meeting with my oncologist this coming Monday for the first time since I have started Taxol. I am hoping he will be as pleased with the way things are going as he has been so far.  I feel so fortunate to have had a milder case of physical symptoms than most people while going through chemo.  I will admit it has not been as hard on me physically as it has been on me mentally and emotionally. I can deal with being tired, nauseous, pain in my fingertips, stomach problems, and even hair loss. I know this too shall pass.  It has been much harder to deal with slowing down, not being able to do all I used to do, feeling like I can’t take care of my family like I used to, having to rely on others a lot more.  I at times have felt without purpose.  Or standing still, not able to go forward, like our life has been put on pause for a while.  I try to keep these thoughts at bay. The few times they have infiltrated my mind, I find much strength in the scriptures and kneeling in prayer, finding comfort through my Savior and Heavenly Father.  Strength also comes in the embrace of my loving husband, family, and in the number of thoughts and prayers of loved ones. I have become grateful for this opportunity to grow, to become stronger than before.  I have realized that I would be in much more of a standstill if I did not have any adversity in my life.  I am learning so much about myself and my relationships.  I am so grateful for a loving Father in Heaven, who provides me with the tools I need to make it through difficult times. For all the tougher times in my life, I am thankful.  For it has brought with them a deeper and more personal relationship with my Father in Heaven, an increased understanding of who I am and who I can become.  Thank you again for lifting me up through this journey.  I am overwhelmed with thankfulness for each of you.

It has been too long since I last updated the blog. We have gone through two more treatments since my last blog update.  Both treatments brought with them the usual symptoms of fatigue and nausea, but this time accompanied with the wonderful symptoms that come with allergy season.  It has helped tremendously to have Jason’s mother keep the children for a couple of days when I go in for chemo.  The rest I get those first few days after treatment is crucial to how I feel the rest of the week.  Jason and my parents have been a huge help here as well in helping take care of the children and allowing me to get the rest I need.  I am so blessed with an incredible support group.   This last treatment, which was this past Monday, marked the end of my first “round” of chemo.  I was to get 2 drugs for 4 treatments, every other week.  Monday was the last of those 4. I will begin a new drug (Taxol) on April 30^th and will be receiving chemo weekly for 12 weeks.  This should then mark the end of my treatments.  I must admit I will sorely miss my weeks off in between treatments.  It has been quite nice to get a week where I would feel as close to normal as possible.  But the sooner we can get treatments over with, the better! So I am ready to tackle this new schedule. I will meet with my oncologist on Monday to further discuss this next round of treatments.  With every appointment I have had with him, he has been well pleased with how I have handled treatments so far.  I am maintaining my weight and my white blood cell count has been good and steady.  I still get a Neulasta shot the day after each treatment to boost my white blood cell count.  He hasn’t had to give me any additional shots as my levels have been satisfactory.  This is very good.  I am hoping to be able to keep this up for the next 12 weeks.  This past month brought with it bittersweet moments.  Bitter being the reach of a new milestone.  I turned 30 on March 28^th!!!  I can hardly believe it.  I was always a bit afraid of this number, but turns out I feel just the same as I did when I was 29.  So not such a big deal after all.  The sweetness of this moment was the surprise arrival of my older sister Melanie, who lives in Montreal, Canada. She surprised me the night of my birthday, and surprise me she did!  I frightened my son as I screamed so loud when I saw her walk through the threshold. Jason said Jaden almost leaped out of his arms he was so startled by my reaction.  I consider my siblings (my own and my husband’s) my best friends and being able to celebrate with her was the best present I could’ve ever asked for.  I am so grateful to her husband for holding down the fort back home so she could come.  As if that wasn’t surprise enough, a few days after my sister left, my brother Etienne and his wife Melany came in from Montreal as well for yet another surprise visit.  It was so incredible to be able to spend time with such loved ones so unexpectedly. A sweet reunion it was. Turning 30 ended up not being so bad after all!

the day has come, the hair must go

As Jason posted Monday, we have completed a second round of chemo. The fatigue and nausea have somewhat intensified compared to the last round, but definitely nothing too bad. I feel so blessed to not be so sick. I have been anticipating the hairloss to occur around this time, since we were told that's when it usually happens.  I was a bit taken by surprise though, as I was running my fingers through my hair while getting ready to head out for chemo Monday morning.  Hair started falling out with every stroke.  It got progressively worse as the day went on.  Hair was all over my pillow as I awoke Tuesday morning and as the day progressed, strands became more like clumps.  This morning I again awoke to a pillow covered in hair.  It became apparent that the day had come.  So I had my personal stylist, my dear sister Arianne, come and do the job.  We were both very nervous and in no hurry to get started.  She lovingly buzzed her youngest son Mason's hair in an act of support before we got started.  He is such a stud.  We tried to stall for quite a bit but eventually got to the task at hand.  Even through the nervousnes, I felt a great peace.  I know this is only for a moment.  It is only physical and I know it will grow back.  I have been so uplifted by all of you, by those who have shaved their heads in loving support, and by the tremendous amounts of prayers.  It gave me the strength I needed.  And I now know how it feels to shave my head.  It was something I always wondered what it would feel like, and especially look like.  It feels different, that's for sure.  A welcome cool breeze on the top of my head as the thermometer has been climbing lately.  I will mostly be sporting scarves and hats from now on.  I have been contemplating getting a wig, but we will see. I know I do this at the end of each post, but it doesn't feel right to log off without thanking you.  This all would be way too much without your support.  I feel like my family and I have been able to go through this experience with such peace and comfort, and I know it is because of your love, thoughts, support and prayers.  It wouldn't be right to let a moment go by without thanking you and my Father in Heaven.

We have gone through another round of Chemo, and Audree is still as strong as ever.  It is tough on her body, and the thought of losing her hair is tough on her, but she is holding strong.  The week that she has chemo is tough and takes her a few days to recover.  On facebook my brother created a group called Team Audree.  And a lot of people have posted their support by shaving their heads for her.  All these little things have made this experience a lot easier, and has brought smiles to our faces.  Audree keeps being super mom and spouse.  From talking to her you would not be able to tell that she is going through cancer treatment.  I know this because of all the prayers we have received on her behalf.  Their may be a lot of different religions involved, but as a christian community it is amazing to see everyone come together to pray for one person.  Throughout this process I am continually reminded of the parable in the scriptures that talks about the lost sheep, and how the shepherd (Jesus Christ) will not leave even one behind, that the worth of all souls are great. 

First I have to say, that everyone has been awesome, and we love all the support we are getting from everyone.  We have received lots of cards, flowers, gifts, and even have lots of people shaving their heads in support of Audree.  We have truly been blessed, and all the love and support has made this such an easier thing to deal with.  Today was Audree's first Chemo session, and so far so good.  It took almost 3.5 hours for the treatment from setup to finish.  I was not able to sit with her, but when I picked her up she said she felt fine.  I contribute that to how in shape and fit she is.  She has always eaten right and worked out each day.  So I guess that stuff is good for you.  I am trying to follow her lead.  She has been amazing through this whole thing and has been able to laugh and enjoy this process even though it is very unpleasant.  Staying positive is key and she is awesome at it.  I could not have received a better eternal partner than her, she really makes everyone around her better.  The plan is Chemo every other Monday for 2 months (4 treatments for all you English majors).  After that she will have treatment once a week for 12 weeks.  This is the plan the doctor put us on, and he said this could change in that it would be decreased or increased depending on the results.  The best way to look at it is 2 different treatments because she is being injected with different medications.  One is 4 treatments the other is 12 treatments.  We do not expect all the treatments to be as smooth as this one.  They said the first treatment is given at a slower pace to allow your body to get use to it, but we are praying for all of them to be as smooth as the first.  I hope they go that way for the sake of our kids because I cannot take care of our kids the way she can.  She is an amazing mother and wife, and I do not want to see her suffer.  Thanks for the support!!!

Recovery from surgery is going very well. I am pleasantly surprised with the amount of energy I have had these past 2 weeks.  I know it has a great deal to do with the many prayers and positive thoughts that come my way.  Thank you all for that!  There are a few adjustments that come with a mastectomy and I am learning to cope with them. I still feel a bit of stiffness in my right arm and have different stretches to do that will help bring mobility back.  

I saw my oncologist today to discuss the next steps.  Chemo treatments will start as early as next Monday, March 5^th.  I will receive a treatment every other week for the first eight weeks.  Each of those treatments will take approximately 3.5 hours and will require a next day shot to boost the white cells count.

After the first 8 weeks of chemo are completed, I will be given one treatment per week for 12 weeks.  After the 20 weeks of chemo are done, I must take monthly medicine for a period of 5 years.  The doctor said that considering the size of the tumor, there is a 30% chance of re-occurrence without chemo treatments.  Chemo will reduce the risk by 25%, bringing it down to approximately 23%.  

The usual negative side effects of chemo are expected, but we will take it one day at a time.  Radiation is not going to be necessary as the margins they removed around the tumor are clear, as well as the sentinel lymphnodes.  I am so grateful for that. The Lord has blessed us tremendously with wonderful people to cheer us on and encourage us.  We want to thank you for showing us such love and support.   

This is day 4 after surgery and Audree is doing great.  She is in pain around the left side where they removed the breast.  Today we took the dressing off, and we both agreed that it looked really good.  The surgeon did a great job.  Audree had this picture in her head of what it would look like but it turned out to look better than expected.  She still has the JP drain and we hope that will be taken out on Monday when we go to the doctor.  That drain helps get all the fluid, and blood out of the pocket in her chest.  We hope on Monday Audree will be able to start exercising.  She is really tight under her arm and wants to stay in shape.  Our kids have been staying at my parents house, so Audree can rest and so that my mom can spend some quality time with them.  My mom is in heaven, but not being with the kids has been tough on Audree, but I feel that it has been good for her to rest, and try to recover.  Hopefully when we look back we will realize this was the best decision, even though it is hard to be away from your kids for more than a day.  We received a lot of support from friends, family, and extended CFA family.  We will keep you posted!!!

Today was the day of the surgery.  Everything went well.  Audree is an amazing woman.  She is as tough as they come.  We arrived at the hospital at 8 am this morning to get everything started, and the actual surgery took 2 hours.  We are very blessed for the outcome, and for the doctors who did a great job.  The lord has been in this every step of the way.  The surgeon told me that the sentinel nodes were cancer free, and by the end of the week we will know if everything around the breast is cancer free.  We will also find out for sure if there is no need for radiation.  We are hoping that radiation is not necessary.  We also find out the steps we have to take from here until she is cancer free.  I want to thank everyone for their prayers.  Today has been an emotional day and we are glad that it is done, Audree has done great, and is in a lot of pain but in great spirits.  She knows that she needs to sleep a lot and I will need prayers to get Audree to be selfish over the next few days and take care of her self.  She loves to serve and give all of her time to others, but now it is time for her to receive and gain all the strength that she can.  From here on out we will update this page almost daily as now our journey begins to have Audree become cancer free.  One step at a time.

This post is done by Jason MacDonald her husband.  You will have to bare with me as my words are not as elegant as Audree's.

Well it has been a great weekend, a weekend of a lot to reflect on.  We were charged with the task of deciding the right procedure for Audree and preparing for our visit with the Surgeon on Monday.  We had a great meeting today with the surgeon and came to the decision to have the mastectomy.  This is a decision that Audree and I have thought long and hard over.  We have had a lot of support and prayers from many of our closest friends to people we do not even know.  It has been a testimony growing experience to receive calls, emails and to be stopped by people who do not know us telling us they are praying for our family. 

After our meeting today with the surgeon, receiving the different opinions we have received, and through our own prayers we were able to make the right decision and feel confident in what we chose.  The procedure is tomorrow 1:00 pm.  We have to go in to the hospital at 8:00 am to start all the prep work, and at 9:30 am Audree will have her sentinel nodes tested around her left chest to make sure the cancer has not spread to those areas.  This is an outpatient procedure if we want and we could come home that night.  However, since Audree won't be out of recovery until 4 or 5, and we will not know how she will feel we will probably stay the night, to be safe and come home Wednesday morning sometime. 

We have seen the lord's hand in this process everyday and know that our family was prepared to endure this road block in our lives.  Because of our faith in prayer and the lord, we both feel that this has not been a trial, and we have received so many blessings from this experience.  I cannot thank everyone enough for everything that has been done for our family.  I know that Jesus is the Christ and that he is always with us throughout our lives, though our trials are not easy, we can easily overcome them through love, faith, and turning to him.  We have to do our part and endure the best way we can, but if anyone is reading this post with doubt in their minds of our almighty creator, I implore you to turn to the scriptures and pray as hard as you can to gain a personal testimony of Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father.

I will continue to update this blog as now the realness of this disease has hit our family.  We will stay positive and attack the cancer one day at a time.  After the surgery tomorrow we will know the steps needed to preserve Audree, and have her become cancer free.  Right now we are not going to have to do radiation, but that could change depending on what they see tomorrow.  They are also predicting 6 months of Chemo, but again we will not know that until later.  Thank you everyone for remembering our family.  We love you all. 

Next Step

I got a long-awaited call from the surgeon yesterday with the results of the BRCA test.  I was so happy to hear him say the results were negative.  What a relief! “Hereditary breast and ovarian cancer (HBOC) is a genetic condition. This means that the cancer risk can be passed from generation to generation in a family. Two genes are associated with HBOC: BRCA1 and BRCA2 (BRCA stands for BReast CAncer). A mutation (alteration) in either of these genes gives a woman an increased lifetime risk of developing breast and ovarian cancers.” (www.cancer.net). Imagine my relief when I got the results.  I fret at the thought of the increased chance of getting breast cancer for my own children and my dear siblings.  The Lord is good and hears prayers!

Last week, I had to be put on a medicine called Parlodel to stop my milk production in preparation for my upcoming surgery.  In order to do so, I had to start taking the medicine and stop nursing cold turkey, without pumping.  For all you nursing mothers, you can imagine my discomfort!  The medicine has now finally taken effect and I am now thankfully pain free.  I will be meeting with Dr. Foster this Monday to discuss which surgery to perform, my choices being a lumpectomy, a mastectomy or a double mastectomy.  I feel like this is such a huge decision with life-changing effects, and I have been struggling with making up my mind.   I have been fervently praying to be guided to the right decision.  I want to make sure I make the right one.  I continue to research and seek counsel from my Heavenly Father to know what to do.  According to the doctor, all of the surgeries will take care of this cancer and none are superior to the other.  They did advise me to go with whatever one I feel most comfortable with and with whichever one will not keep me up worrying at night about the prospect of the cancer returning.  We are trying to think long term and want to do everything in our power to help prevent the return of this cancer.  We do know that it is ultimately in God’s hands and will accept His will regardless.  But we would like to ere on the side of caution as much as possible.  So I am thankful for the few more days I have ahead of me to come to a sound decision.

On another note, some of you may be aware that our family was planning on a move across country to Utah this coming week.  This has sadly been put on hold because of my recent diagnosis and upcoming treatments.  Jason works for a wonderful company, Chick-Fil-A.  We have been working really hard the past several years to get our own franchise.  Our dream finally came true last October as we were offered a store in Layton,UT.  We are saddened to have to put this on hold after waiting for this opportunity for so long, but know our family must stay together, as we know that is when we are strongest.  We cannot even begin to express our overwhelming gratitude and appreciation for the numerous accommodations Chick-Fil-A has provided us with upon hearing of the diagnosis.  We obviously needed to keep our insurance going and to continue to have income while Jason stays back to be with our family.  Chick-Fil-A has ensured these things to happen by letting him work for corporate from home until we are ready to move again. We feel so blessed to be working with such a family-oriented company with such compassion and Christ like love. We have had so many people from this company (peers, heads of the company and people Jason has never even met) reach out to us.  We were very much surprised last night as I answered a knock on the door to find two humongous boxes waiting for us.  We were DEEPLY touched as we opened them only to find an abundance (and I mean abundance!) of toys and other goodies for the children and the family.  They were sent by the Utah operators that are in the region Jason was going to be in and by a marketing team.  I was at a loss for words as I marveled at the tremendous thoughtfulness of these wonderful people.  We again feel so blessed through this experience and want to continue to thank all of you for your constant prayers and thoughts.  They touch us so much. We are reminded each day of the power of prayer and the blessings of having a tremendous support group in all of you.  We feel the outpouring of love and are uplifted by it.  Thank you for making this experience one of growth.   We will continue to update the blog as I go and have surgery, which is now scheduled for this Wednesday, Feb. 15^th.
~Audree

    

Prochaine étape

Audrée a reçu les résultats du test BRCA. Ils sont négatifs ce qui signifie que le cancer n'est pas génétique.  Une bonne nouvelle.  Elle va rencontrer le chirurgien lundi, 13 février.  Elle prend des médicaments, de la vitamine B6 et tisanes de sauge pour arrêter la production de son lait.  C'est d'ailleurs ce qui la rendait le plus triste, d'arrêter l'allaitement.  Notre petit Jaden a bien fait la transition et prend le biberon et la formule sans problème.  L'hôpital a contacté Audrée  cet avant-midi pour prendre toutes les informations nécessaires avant d'être admise mercredi 15 février.  Ce sont des dates faciles à retenir.  Le 25 janvier, elle a appris qu'elle avait un cancer du sein.  Ce jour est aussi l'anniversaire de naissance du père de Benoît.  Le jour de l'opération est le jour de l'anniversaire de naissance de sa soeur Arianne.  Depuis l'annonce, nous nous sentons tous enveloppés d'une grande paix.  Nous sommes si reconnaissants à tous pour votre amour, votre soutien, vos pensées positives et vos prières. 

How it started...

I wish I could adequately express the feelings I am feeling as I sit and start this blog. They are many. First off, my heart is filled, overflowing really, with gratitude to all those who have reached out to us in the past week. Countless offers to help with the children, encouraging facebook messages, text messages, phone calls, visits, cards, goodies and dinner dropped off, people giving us formula, offering to give breastmilk, etc. We can't even begin to express just how touched we are by the outpouring of love and support. We decided to start this blog to facilitate getting the word around on what is going on. So here is a quick account on how the breast cancer was found, up to our last appointment with the surgeon yesterday.

Jason and I are blessed with 3 wonderful children, 2 beautiful little girls, Halle 5 and Bella 3, and our latest addition being our son Jaden. Jaden is almost 7 weeks old. I was scheduled for a c-section on 12/16/11. I went in to see my ob/gyn on 12/14 for my pre-op exam. During this exam, Dr. Hearn did a routine breast exam, which he always performs on his patients before a c-section. Many doctors do not do this, but how thankful I am that he does. During this exam, he found a lump on my left breast, located at the 6 o'clock position. He didn't seem too concerned, thought it was what they call a lactating adenoma, but thought it safer to have it ultrasound. We scheduled the ultrasound that very afternoon. The radiologist also thought it was probably a lactating adenoma, but also felt it safer to monitor it and have me come in 4 weeks later for a follow-up ultrasound. So I went back for my 4 week follow-up.  They realized then that it had grown a good bit since the last ultrasound, so they scheduled a biopsy.  I had the biopsy done shortly after and went home, expecting them to call with the results.  Waiting for the results, the fleeting thought of it being cancerous came and went. As I thought about it, a great peace came over me, so I did not worry.  We got a phone call the day after the biopsy from the oncology department saying the radiologist wanted to meet with me the next day.  I knew then that my thoughts were probably a way my Heavenly Father used to prepare me for the news to come.  I went to my appointment the next day accompanied by my mother and mother in law, along with Jaden. They sat us down and revealed to us it wasn’t good news.  They proceeded to tell me I had invasive ductal carcinoma.  (Most breast cancers start in the ducts or lobes. Almost 75% of all breast cancers begin in the cells lining the milk ducts and are called ductal carcinomas. If the disease has spread outside of the duct and into the surrounding tissue, it is called invasive or infiltrating ductal carcinoma. www.cancer.net).  It was hard to hear, but I again felt the peace I had felt since the lump was found.  I knew it was a peace only my Heavenly Father could bring me.  I held it together until I was told I would have to discontinue breastfeeding since chemotherapy was in store for me.  That was very hard for me to come to terms with.  I struggle still with that reality, but must say I have felt so blessed by our little Jaden, as he has been so great through the transition.  I then met with my surgeon to discuss the different options for surgery.  The options are lumpectomy (the removal of the tumor and a small, clear (cancer-free) margin of normal tissue around the tumor. Most of the breast remains. For both DCIS and invasive cancer, follow-up radiation therapy to the remaining breast tissue is generally recommended. www.cancer.net) or mastectomy (the surgical removal of the entire breast).  Things are a bit more complicated in my case because I am lactating.  The surgeon has never performed breast surgery on a lactating patient, therefore was not sure of how the healing process would go. We originally set up a tentative date of surgery for Feb. 1^st, but that changed as I had another appointment with the surgeon on Jan. 31^st.  We are running additional tests to help determine which surgery would be best for my situation.  The results should take 7-10 days to get back.  Once they are in, we will set up the date and details for surgery.  I was also put on medication to stop lactation, as it will facilitate the surgery and ensure good and speedy recovery.  I also met with my oncologist, who gave us more details about my tumor.  He informed us that having breast cancer now puts me more at risk of getting it again.  Also, my tumor is over 1 cm, so that puts me at greater risk of getting any other type of cancer again (lung, liver and bone cancer being most common).  The tumor is a grade 3 tumor, which means it has a high tendency to spread and separate.  So we need to act as soon as possible.  I will be able to start chemotherapy once I am healed from surgery, which typically takes 4 weeks.  This has been a lot to take in.  I have felt quite overwhelmed this past week.  But I find that taking it one day at a time makes it much more manageable.  I have faith that this is in my Heavenly Father’s hands.  I am confident that I can overcome this.  I have seen His hand in my life countless times and know he carries me through.  I know it will not be an easy journey, but one I can make with the support of loved ones.  I have felt the many thoughts and prayers given in my behalf and in the behalf of my family.  It gives me the strength and courage necessary to make it through.  I thank you all for the amazing support.  I am overwhelmed by the compassion shown to me and my loved ones.  We will keep posting the details of surgery and chemotherapy here on this blog as we find out what they are.  I send my love and thanks to you all as we go through this journey armed with your love and support.



~Audree and family